About Me


Hi! I'm Brittany.

I used to be a perfectionist.  I’m still a perfectionist in the healing stages, really.

I used to feel like I had to be the best at everything, especially in terms of physical appearance.  When I was in junior high, I developed the idea that I was leagues below every single girl at my school in terms of beauty.  My goal was to look “decent” at that time.  All I really wanted was to avoid any extra attention due to the physical features I thought were horrifyingly abnormal.

At some point – probably a combination of (unnecessary) weight loss and validating comments from various friends and family members – I realized I was already decent, and so decent turned into pretty.

My distress at wanting to be decent became a yearning to be pretty. I wanted people to like me for my appearance because I didn’t feel as though I had much else to offer.  I was quiet, reserved… not outgoing and sociable like the other girls in my grade.  I felt things deeply.  That was precisely what made me beautiful, though – my beautiful – but I was blind. 

A few years later, after getting comments from certain guys and other people about my physical appearance, I finally felt sort of pretty.

And so pretty became perfect.


My life turned into a pursuit of perfection, with the main goal of being the prettiest girl I could possibly be.  I wanted people to see me and notice me, because I felt painfully insignificant otherwise.

This progression of goals centered around my physical appearance was nothing but a reflection of my self-worth.  The less worth I gave myself, the more I felt the need to compensate with superficial beauty.  Once I began working on improving my self-worth, the less I cared about being physically “perfect”.

Somewhere along the way, I picked up the idea that I was everything I needed to be.  There was nothing insignificant about me.  I’m introverted and sensitive; I enjoy eating delicious things and exercising when I feel like it.  I don’t look like anyone else, and I don’t act like anyone else. 

And that, my friends, is the exact revelation I want to help lead you to.

 
As a certified life coach and experiencer of critically low self-esteem, obsessive tendencies, and social anxiety, I’m here to help you through the process of finding out who you truly are and intensely loving who you find.